Polar Bear

Hibernation & Drugged

ZzzzZZZzzzzzZZZ..

The polar bear being drugged.. Cough..

Bear tak sihat.. nak rehat... tapi setiap kali nak rehat... orang panggil... stress betul.. So.. the bear decided to rest a bit..

Resstt..

On wednesday evening, I'm being summoned NAIK KE LANGIT  mengadap client yg buat review tak bagi tau Bear..sebab client tanya orang colleague bear yang lain (yg tak handle kerja bear)...

However... the bear really hurt (Stress + tak bley lari beruang + RPM + batuk + doctor orders).. Being backstabbed by his collleagues...

Yesterday, Me backstab them again.. Hahaha... Padan mUka..

Client came to me & I told the project engineers to entertain them.. Client feel bored and back to his pit again.. Hahahaha..

I'm taking half day leave.. lantak laa... malas BEar nak layan client berhingus nie.. Hehehe

SiCK..PSicckkoo

Still Sick..

Work for 10 hours a day.. Waa..

Still wasn't recovered from the fever, I forced my self to meet the dateline. What I need is a rest. Worked for 10hours X 6 times a week. Pretty hectic..  But I WILL Not miSS my DEpth.. & i never missed one..

No RPM.. No Weights.. No.. No.. Cardio...

Arghh Pretty Stress OUT..

DAMN. DOctor Order...NO CARDIO FOR A WEEK... But no MC.. HOwcome?

LAst tuesday... gIE Roadhouse Grill..

Hehehe.. Ngan Mentor & Dato J yang insaf.. .sorry tak ambil gambar sekali.. hehehehe.. kamera tue mahal sgt laa..

However we had fun.. Ramon ate a lot..

-(pics of Master Z, Me & Prof. R)

Sarip.. hehehe...

Sarip kata "Kau dapat Bonus yer."

Dato J "Hahaha.. orang nak belanja... YEah .. aku gie salmon grill."

Sarip ngan nafsu beruang asia nyer "Aku nak T-BONE... yang paling besar tue." -- (sama sifatnyer macam BEAR dalam cerita armagaddon)

Dato J "Kita dah tua aa.. High cholestrol."

Sarip ngan muka sedih "Uh.. aku ambik salmon gak."

At the end.. the salmon grill defeated our purpose.

The reason is simple.. (Salmon + butter souce + grilled together)

Uhuk2.. so.. IF we want to control our diet.. Hehehe.. BE a vegetarian..

Sharing & BackStabbing

I'm Sick. Caugh..

The things that i could do right now.. is landing on my bed & write the web blogs. What a lame excuse.

During my collage days.. I lost a few very best friends..

1st of them.. Butet.. cast away from collage.

2nd.. is the best part..

"Dahlah budak bilik aku kau rembat masuk rumah kau... Dan budak perempuan yang aku suka pun budak rumah kau rembat." Taufik rahman, 2003 - ayat perli baik nyer macam aku tikam kawan.

For some reason.. It screwed out a bit and the FIGURES ain't in my side..

It's all began when a housemate dated a girl next door to our house.. & it used to be the girl that one of my classmate crush & she was my classmate. Anyway both of them, the girl and my friend settledown already..

Hehehe..

Story.. tak abis kat sini lagi... Suatu hari rumah aku ada crysis.. teruk gak.. kena cari orang.. so.. AKu tanya Apis.. nak duduk sekali tak?

To persuade him... a lot of things I sacrificed... Eg.. giving the privilage to operate computer..+ FOOD + Ada can tidur awal

I try to make things ringht by being not to upset my fallen friend.. Yerlah waktu mak dia pun... kena masuk spital..

"Wan, kau lepaskan gadis tue boleh tak."

Then my housemate kate "Eleh kau jelas.. cakap aa.. Semua orang dengki termasuk budak rumah aku sendiri."

Since ari tue aku mula tak rapat & termasuk.. Dgn budak perempuan jiran aku tue.. sebab dia kata aku jahat..

So.. Apis nie.. I made him my best sidekick.. & it works.. But for my temporary sidekick.. Hehehe... He moved to another house.. Hehe.. nak bawak kereta..

When we crossed certain lines.. thing ain't back to normal. The scars were there thau the wounds healed completely. So.. aku berjanji being good doing good deeds..

At the end I survived. People said ala2 " Bangsat " . Sighh.. Tapi.. one miricale I found.  Bond solat istikarah.. memang dia nampak gadis tue jadi wife dia. & Mum dia pun nampak gadis tue kat spital.. Mak dia cerita.. "Mak rasa macam kenal kawan awak"

fast fwd.. 2007 proven challengging than 2006.

& when Dato J left..

I left alone.. felt abandoned.. I promised my self that I will leave MMC.. Tapi.. aku teringatkan cerita bond.. Aku solat istikarah kadang2 sampai ternitis air mata sebab stress (Dahlah takleh RPM.. kaki injured).. a few time last year.. & aku selalu dapat mimpi yang datang tu.. & kebetulan sama macam Deja'Vu.

Offer kerja tempat lain.. banyak yang datang..

Cuma bila relate ngan mimpi dengan keadaan (proven) sekarang.

- lost a best friend &..eheh He... half proven betul2 deja vu.. Hehehe

- Then mimpi aku stay kat MMC. Memang aku akan stay for.... & the reasons pun sama macam aper aku dalam mimpi ari tue...

if we are lost.. ask allah...

Tapi .. my success.. I will share  the trophy with my mentors.. 2007 for the hardworks really pay off.. Tapi kesan luka still ada...

26 ..err 27 & getting OLDEERRR..

Wallah..

I'm 27 this september. Still Younggggggggggold...

When I was 23.. the inner me had an ambitious hope to reduce his minnie fattie me..

then 24.. got the reduction..

25.. got the reduction..

26.. stagnant..

27.. dunno yet..

last night was the most enjoyable RPM night I ever had..

Old tracks.. except this time no chicken little theme..

Now.. I am old.. & officially pancit...

Even during the 1st mauntain challange. Accidently, I wordout "Sh*t"

then Varon "I hear the S word.. 'that I call progress'.. well done."

I'm all wet after the class. But for Veron she like the performance I had shown.. Nice to have regulars around..

Seriously.. memang pancit sangat...

To suit my age..

Shahrul kata.... "Abang lan kena buat long distance running with average heart rate of 142"

"Giler.. tak pernah dibuat orang" I kata..

"Hahaha.. RPM No More... Skang.. kita change program tue."

So hari nie.. officially I ran for 90 minutes with average heart beat of 145..

So.. welcome the wrinkle2 days..

Tapi... One crusade still ain't finish..

With proper guidance, monitoring and disciplin.. My social life will only screw up for only a year and Right now I'm officially anti social-ayat Rashidah.. if 2008.. I ain't achieve what I hoped for since 2004..  'boroi is forever'

Bla Bla Bla

So...

lately.. a lot of resignation around me.
People are leaving the good company..

Why?

A LOT OF WORK

I felt depress when working for the a year ago. Howover I never dream to have things that could change a major path in my life.

The depression.. Hmmm people learnt a lot esp when they are bz & in the nick of time..

I learnt a lot.. however with a proper filling and good notes.. multiple projects will be smooth sailing.. Still the pressure was there. & now I earned the respect.

Lately.. the team got bigger... this time around it full of fresh graduates..

Yesterday..

I went to finance department.. I asked a friend.. what is the reason your jumping?

"Banyak kerja la LAN. Work improvement pun takda."

So.. a major flaw for the managers that wrongly allocated his workforce.

How over.. last night.. traffic was worst.

I wondering around my floor a met with a friend.

Kesian.. muka macam nak menangis...

"kenapa nie." I asked her.

"Sob. Sob. Iskhh.. document aku hilang..."

then i helped the little girl to tidy up her table a bit & start to systemized her documents & drawings. Ya Allah what a mess.

I wonder around her table and found her certs among the A3's.

"Wow.. 1st grade budak nie" I whispered.

"Kau percaya tak, graduate 1st class pun tak dapat nak bantu?"

in my heart, 'kesian.. takder guide.. nasib baik aku ada azlan & ghani'

then "tapikan.. u takder orang nak guide. Nie semua kerja senior. I guess u don't have the oppertunity to learn from a mentor."

"Yer laa.. bos kata.. bulan depan seniors masuk."

Borak2 & susun2 ... dekat pukul 9..  Go HOME..

Lesson learnt.. for the 1st five years.. learn as much as you can. After having a degree or master... they just a tool 'stepping stone' for the next level...

I learnt a lot.. & I made my mind.. If I can salvage the thought from my seniors.. I will stay.. Money wise.. Nah..

Knowledge is wisdom,

Money Is power.

PR is survivor,

Fitness is whealth...

After a hectic lifestyle.. excercise a bit to release the pressure.. It helps a lot.. Trust me.. I shout & screamed during the RPM class... I curse a lot infront of my personal trainers when i forced to do push ups.. Simple WORD.. 'RELEASE THE PRESSURE'.

No one will told me to find what do I want.. I have to figure them by my self...

as kak ina questionairs.. found that :-

I have a high alter ego.

LOW SEX LIFE - not married yet and done a lot of cardiovascular activities.

End..

New Year, Fresh Start!

2007...

At the beginning... beautiful and wonderful plans ended up with most of the ambitious ain't going as I hoped for.

Since my 25th birthday to My wish on the 26th... Instead of being an essential guy... I'm trying to be a gentleman.. as an extraordinary one &  a bit metrosexual I guess.. & I hope people who know me.. since collage days wont always tell me.. "KNOWING ME IS A HUGE MISTAKE"... & I try to be humble & polite in future, but I can't. A bear always been a bear.. esp a Polar Bear...

27 years old.. A new beginning.. starting up my journey again..

At the beginnig they looked soo good on paper and sometimes always end up with screwups.. So.. narrow up my findings...

1. Boroi No more.. So.. jangan malas2 nak excercise..

2. Get My health back... I have a trainer BACK.. and this time around.. I will keep going on- tempoarally not much of entertainment.

3. Get Better salary... KLCC parking increased to RM 7 for their special rates.. Damn.. CUrve increased RM 1. & stil remember a girl told that her fiancee salary is twice better than me as same exprience.. Err.. cari kerja lain.... Or learnt at MMC.. delimma..

4. Be a gentleman.. as a friend told to my sister.. I ain't a gentle kind of person. So .. I try to polish up my manners this year.

5. New Spectacle.

6. I-pod...

7. Humble me.

8. Better Islamic understanding.. too much deaths past year...

9.

....... 99. Get a life .. get a GF.. Hahahaha..

However.. AKak zarina did notice changes on me..

First of all.. I'm not being as a direct as a POlar BeAr as the first time she meet me. Less blunt and more polite but still rough in edges.. This time I don't want to be cold any more...

2008 .. I'm comminggg...